Erik and Depression

Sometimes it's hard for me to picture a prominent star like Erik could be suffering depression. He's 25, a hunk and seemingly he has everything going for him, not to mention a kiss and a hug from Kathy Griffin. How does all those things lead you into deep depression? But apparently that's not enough to make one happy.

I have been google-eyed ever since I saw him in SuperSoaked. Erik is obviously attractive in a very chiseled way, the "water dragon" tattoo in Kanji is also very intriguing. Francois and Francesco has voiced how they like Erik before, so I really thought it would be nice to be Erik. But then there is the steroids that bring up roid rage and mood swings. There are easy access to drugs like Es and Tinas which can bring you down lower after the high. The booze which is also a downer. The job as a porn star that requires you to have countless meaningless sex with random hot guys that require you to do "it" for prolonged hours. The fame that attracts random guys to date you just to show their friends that they are dating a porn star and not for who you are. Then guys fall for you so easy that makes everything else meaningless.

Readers of his blog is complaining because his blog is depressing and not entertaining enough, as if Erik should blog for their benefits. But then I can't help but worry for him, because we have had a couple of porn star suicides. I really want to help him, but there's little I can do. It's not like we can be friends immediately and I wouldn't know what to do anyhow.(Although I finally found out the source of his tattoo from his very own mouth one or two weeks back) All I can hope for is for him to find something that he's really interested in doing and turn his obsessions into something productive. I realized that one can get very disgusted on what they are doing for so long especially when it is porn, but maybe a couple months of respite and getting his mind off of it will do him good.