More Things to Obsess Over

>> Thursday, January 31, 2008

I don't know why had the notion in that YouTube is only for clips for English viewers. I should have know the Chinese (amongst others) would find a way to utilize it to the max. A friend just sent me the link to clips of Hong Kong television shows back in the 70s and within the same guy's folder there are back to the 50s. Where do they find those things? They don't even have VCRs yet back in the 50s.

Amongst the different clips there are episodes of a series resembles to the Twilight Zone. I remember being very scared when I watched them growing up, we have our own set of ghosts and monsters in China. I would probably laugh at the special effects and storylines if I watch them now, but I'm too chicken shit to watch them. Somthings are timeless though, like Children's songs from the 70s:

and some McDonalds commercial back in the 80s:

Maybe not timeless, but the nostalgic values are melting me.

I also accidentally stumble across another TV series about a famous Chinese Kung Fu novel "Return of the Condor Heroes". There's an outrageously gorgeous girl in it and english subtitles if anyone is interested. Just click here to start part one of the first episode. I stayed up until 5 this morning just because I can't stop watching the show. There's like 41 hour-long episode. Pray for me.


Erik and Depression

>> Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Sometimes it's hard for me to picture a prominent star like Erik could be suffering depression. He's 25, a hunk and seemingly he has everything going for him, not to mention a kiss and a hug from Kathy Griffin. How does all those things lead you into deep depression? But apparently that's not enough to make one happy.

I have been google-eyed ever since I saw him in SuperSoaked. Erik is obviously attractive in a very chiseled way, the "water dragon" tattoo in Kanji is also very intriguing. Francois and Francesco has voiced how they like Erik before, so I really thought it would be nice to be Erik. But then there is the steroids that bring up roid rage and mood swings. There are easy access to drugs like Es and Tinas which can bring you down lower after the high. The booze which is also a downer. The job as a porn star that requires you to have countless meaningless sex with random hot guys that require you to do "it" for prolonged hours. The fame that attracts random guys to date you just to show their friends that they are dating a porn star and not for who you are. Then guys fall for you so easy that makes everything else meaningless.

Readers of his blog is complaining because his blog is depressing and not entertaining enough, as if Erik should blog for their benefits. But then I can't help but worry for him, because we have had a couple of porn star suicides. I really want to help him, but there's little I can do. It's not like we can be friends immediately and I wouldn't know what to do anyhow.(Although I finally found out the source of his tattoo from his very own mouth one or two weeks back) All I can hope for is for him to find something that he's really interested in doing and turn his obsessions into something productive. I realized that one can get very disgusted on what they are doing for so long especially when it is porn, but maybe a couple months of respite and getting his mind off of it will do him good.


Volunteer Woes

>> Monday, January 28, 2008

I got appointed to be the trainer on computer issues in my office. Specifically since I'm the only "computer guy" in the office, I was asked to give classes on Microsoft Office. (How they linked the two together is beyond me.) We have approximately 8-9 volunteers in the office, they are volunteers but they get some sort of a cheque every two weeks. So they aren't exactly volunteering, so the program attracts low income individuals to spend some time helping around. But then we have not much for them to do, so we have to think of something and the class is a start.

It is difficult at times for me to explain how things work, I much prefer doing it by myself to save my time. So it is a different experience for me. Some basic functions like font changing or spacing is too basic for me to spend 15 minutes just to talk about it. But somehow that is required for this audience. They don't have basic office skills. They don't have some of the most basic concepts. During the class as I was explaining the function on word count, one of the volunteer asked "What do you mean by character?" As I was trying to figure out ways to explain it, she prompts "Like Bugs Bunny and stuff?" How do I begin?

After going through the program in about 3 hours, I asked them to do a simple flyer for Easter as a practice and just to show that they've learned something. This morning as I was helping one of them, she typed "Jesus died for your sin's, Happy Easter!" I was perplexed by the sentence and the way she spelled "sin's". while she was telling me that the word Jesus seemed to be spelled funny. That coming from a church goer who just attended service this very morning. And then when she spelled the word "luncheon", she wrote lunch and asked me whether it's followed by an "n" or and "on". Don't get me wrong, I'm not making fun of illiteracy or being a grammar police but all of these volunteers presumably had a GED or a high school diploma. And how the hell am I gonna teach English as well as the office suite when I'm not even a native English speaker?

The afternoon was even more exciting when a volunteer who thinks he is a friend of my boss police people about their computer use. He had been hiding power cables before when he found other people using his computer. "This computer is mine and who let them use my computer?" Um... OK... and then he proceeded to throw a fit and say he's gonna tell my boss about it. I can be very unprofessional when people pushed just the right button, so I let him have it and ripped him a new one.


The Drama Ensued

>> Friday, January 25, 2008

So the hate-mongers at the Westboro Baptist Church has opened their filthy mouth to condemn Heath Ledger and say that they will organize a picketing at his funeral because he starred in "Brokeback Mountain" so he'll go to hell for promoting homosexuality. Of course hearing that immediately prompt the hidden rage in me. Eliot has done a better job posting the details than I ever could and I immediately post a comment right after reading it, hope it doesn't scare his readers away. I don't think they will ever learn until something bad happens to them, and I don't mind if I have to be the bringer of such bad fortune. Someone has to do it, I can easily brush it off as community service.

Of course, there are always other assholes whose morals is low enough to use someone else's death to increase their own fame like John Gibson from Fox News. Frankly the whole channel is such bullshit that I have trouble believe that they actually exist. Talk about going to hell...

I have been feeling quite down and the death of Heath Ledger might have triggered something else. Of course being sick is part of it, somehow I get 3x the phone calls when I can't speak. Grandma called out of the blue to deny that my mom has left her a large amount of money when she passed. Funny thing is that I didn't ask, it's just because people around her has been talking. And she likes to argue, she calls out of nowhere just to have heated discussions. Frankly I think that's what keeps her alive. Of course rumors has it that my mom was real good with money and did gave me a nice chunk of inheritance after she passed away, but I was underage and grandma was my guardian, where the money went? I don't know, but as grandma has put it "It's not like you don't have to eat."

DC called out of nowhere to boast that he will be spending a weekend in Paris sometimes in February. And then took the conversation to vent about his family drama, how he lost it in a conversation with his mom when all his mom do is complain about his dad. "Why do they call and complain so much, it's not like I can do anything about it. It just brings me down." Um, why do you call and complain about your parents to me, it's not like I can do anything about it either... But as a good friend, I didn't say that. I didn't say that Paris is no good in February either.

I guess if I want to be around people, there's bound to be drama.


Heath Ledger, 28, Found Dead

>> Tuesday, January 22, 2008

I've just heard about the news of Heath Ledger passing, I simply can't believe it. Heath is one of the actors that I've been admiring, not only because of his looks but because he wasn't afraid to portrait a gay character and doing a good job at that. He's on his way to superstardom with the upcoming release of the Dark Knight's 2. Right now, we are all speculating that it could be an overdose since he was found surrounded by pills. Anyhow, I have no idea how hard it would hit me. I feel like the gay community lost an ally. I can't help but feel very upset. Rest in peace, Heath. You'll be missed.

NEW YORK - Heath Ledger was found dead Tuesday at a downtown Manhattan residence, and police said drugs may have been a factor. He was 28.

NYPD spokesman Paul Browne said Ledger had an appointment for a massage at the Manhattan apartment believed to be his home. The housekeeper who went to let him know the masseuse had arrived found him dead at 3:26 p.m.

A large crowd of paparazzi and gawkers began gathering Tuesday evening outside the building on an upscale block in SoHo, where several police officers guarded the door.

The Australian-born actor was nominated for an Oscar for "Brokeback Mountain," where he met Michelle Williams in 2005. The two had lived in Brooklyn and had a daughter, Matilda, until they split up last year.

He most recently appeared in "I'm Not There," in which he played one of the many incarnations of Bob Dylan — as did Cate Blanchett, whose performance in that film earned an Oscar nomination Tuesday for best supporting actress.

Ledger was to appear as the Joker this year in "The Dark Night," a sequel to 2005's "Batman Begins." He's had starring roles in "A Knight's Tale" and "The Patriot," and played the suicidal son of Billy Bob Thornton in "Monster's Ball."

Ledger grew up in Perth, and began doing amateur theater at age 10. At 16, he moved to Sydney to pursue an acting career, quickly landing TV movie roles and guest spots on Australian television.

After several independent films and a starring role in the short-lived Fox TV series "Roar," Ledger moved to Los Angeles and costarred in "10 Things I Hate About You," a teen comedy reworking of "The Taming of the Shrew."

Offers for other teen flicks came his way, but Ledger turned them down, preferring to remain idle than sign on for projects he didn't like.

"It wasn't a hard decision for me," Ledger told the Associated Press in 2001. "It was hard for everyone else around me to understand. Agents were like, `You're crazy,' my parents were like, `Come on, you have to eat.'"


Not Getting Anywhere

>> Sunday, January 20, 2008

Met Calico Guy inline 2-3 weeks ago, Calico because he got spots of brown hair, Brown hair, Black hair, white hair and blond hair in different spots. We agree to be friends but somehow I felt that he wanted much more than just that, and since we only know each other for a few days and he's already blasting me with 'miss you' messages, I got cold feet. He told me that he do that with all of his friends.

He also seem to have an alcoholism problem, unemployed, lonely and depressed. I'm sure it can all be potentially fixed when he get a job. Anyway, after a lengthy text message conversation, we decided to remain friends. So we went out and had a drink and then went back to his place to talk. We established that we were just going to be friends and then spent the next 24 hours together. We spent the night drinking and singing to songs on YouTube, it's like karaoke but certainly more ghetto. I thought we could get to New york the day after and go to Mitsuwa, the Dugout and perhaps stop by the gay poker game in the city, but the game wasn't in Manhattan that night, so we stayed in the city.

I thought he might still want us to be more than friends, but maybe he's just too lonely. He's always talking, telling me how good I look, maybe it satisfies my vanity or maybe I just don't know how to say 'no', I certainly can't deny that it feels good to have someone next to me. I made vichyssoise, ordered pizza and start watching DVDs as I slowly fall into my chest congestion. My throat hurts ever since the screaming-from-the-top-of-my-lungs karaoke episode and I know I'm having a cold. Thank god Calico guy knows when to leave, he was debating it for the longest time and frankly even if I'm not sick, I enjoy my alone time.

So here I am again, by myself, all stuffed up and getting sleepy as hell after taking some Sudafed, cough syrup with a screwdriver. I just woke up an hour ago and I'm already ready to sleep again. Thank god I have leftover pizza and the vichyssoise.


Viva! MEN-xploitation!

>> Friday, January 18, 2008

An online friend introduced me to a gay commentary site for the reality TV show Project Runway and who doesn't like listening to bitchy queens commenting on each garment coming down that runway, really? (And no, I'm not talking about Nina or Michael Kors) I'm a huge fan of Project Runway and it looks like I'm gonna be a big fan of this site from now on. The site, peculiarly named Project RunGay, is run by two guys who happened to live in Philly. (Tom and Lorenzo) Other than commenting on garments, they seem to have access to casts and judges from the show; Doing interviews with them, "bumping" into past contestants at mood, attending parties and best of all digging up all the dirt relative to the show.

They have the scoop on one of the contestants in this season "Muscle Mary" Jack Mackenroth. Remember? The one who left the competition because of a staph infection on his face. (Would that be the flesh eating strand found in SF?) Turns out like any Marys, he does have quite a few nude pics online, seen here. And it also seems like he is in a relationship with another Bravo reality show contestant, Dale from Top Chef. They make a cute couple, I'm telling you interracial couples are SO yesterday, now it's all about the mixed HIV status. Jack turned out to be quite a bitchy queen though, bashing on the contestants during interviews. I'm telling you, they sound much nicer on TV.

Another show that I'm watching is "Make Me a Supermodel" hosted by Tyson Beckford. (Bravo is so gay, I love it!) They have 7 girls and 7 boys competing to be the ultimate supermodel. All the girls were kinda blah, except Jackie, a couple boys looks pretty hot, but it's what they have them do that's really interesting. The entry episodes they have them do a swimwear runway walk, so they are half naked. The first episode, they were told to wear their best clothes because they are going to a go-see and then end up surrounding a bonfire and burning their clothes to show how much they want it and the they end up half naked. A runway show of speedo swimwear and two of them have to wear thongs. Weekly measurements in their undies, body waxing of chest and butts, another swimwear runway shows. Tell me if that's not exploitation. And guys I'm not saying I don't like it... I love it!

The other interesting thing about the show is a cute openly gay guy Ronnie has a humongous crush on a married ex-prison guard named Ben. Ronnie made it known to the whole group and Ben flirts back! Ben's response to the whole thing is "I guess it's a compliment, right? Gay guys have high standards." Oh my god, I can just die!

Things also get interesting over at Oxygen's Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency. (Although I never watched that show.) Given she has been slapping her models around and being a bitch like always. There's J.P. Calderon one of the gay icons, good looking guy who came to fame on Survivor: Cook islands. But the big news is that one of her new hired model Rodrigo De Carli turns out to be a former gay porn star. Rodrigo has been starring in porn under the name of Claudio Martin under ChiChi LaRue's Channel 1 Productions. He has been in about 6 films and graced a cover himself. I love how gay porn stars are going mainstream.

I hope they have a Mr. USA pageant soon.


Southern Good Eats

>> Thursday, January 17, 2008

One of my colleagues just got an email from her daughter last night saying that there's one Chinese restaurants in New Jersey that got closed up because they were found cooking rats. And with her personality where everything in her life has to be dramatized, she starts to feel quite upset and asking me whether that is a norm in MY Chinese culture.

Not knowing the back story and knowing how she can get, I thought maybe they just found rats in a restaurant, or maybe they just accidentally fried up a rat, like they did in KFC or Jack in the Box. Until she produced an email detailing how "the Chinese" prepares the rat. "Step 1. Burning the hair off with a blow torch", "Step 2. Washing them before cooking", "Step 3. Cutting them into bits to simulate chicken parts", etc...

Then my dear colleague proceed to ask others whether they know about how the Chinese do this in their restaurant. Of course, at some point I should really feel highly offended and probably should speak up with this over the top generalization and borderline blasphemy. But I didn't, because it was just too funny and then she proceed to tell everyone how she and her sister found some dead skinned dogs behind the alley one night. "Who would do things like that?" She says.

And "No, bitch! It's not the norm in the Chinese community! At home, we boiled the rats before we skin them and make them into stir-fries!"


Jamie Lynn is Pregnant

>> Wednesday, January 16, 2008

I'm usually not into celebrity gossips and perhaps this is old news, but I listen to Jonny McGovern's podcast and they brought my attention that Britney's 16 year old sister Jamie Lynn is pregnant.

They haven't revealed who the father is, it is rumored to be her 18 year old boyfriend Casey Aldridge. But recently Casey's breaking up Jamie Lynn and another rumor had surfaced in that the father is actually one Nickelodeon executive, someone that had given Jamie Lynn her show. Either way, it will be statutory rape.

Frankly this sounded like a cry for help. Is it about sibling rivalry? Does she feel the need to outdo Britney? Is that a cry for attention? What's happening with that family? I'm sure the parents should feel so responsible for that, pimpin' their children out at such a young age.


L.A. High School Math Quiz

>> Monday, January 14, 2008

Found this online, sounds funny. :)

THE CITY OF LOS ANGELES HIGH SCHOOL MATH PROFICIENCY EXAM ==========================================

1). Little Jimmy has an AK 47 with a 30 round clip. He usually misses 6 out of every 10 shots and he uses 13 rounds per drive-by shooting. How many drive-by shootings can Little Johnny attempt before he has to reload?

2). Jose has 2 ounces of cocaine. If he sells an 8 ball to Antonio for $320 and 2 grams to Juan for $85 per gram, what is the street value of the rest of his hold?

3). Rufus pimps 3 hos. If the price is $85 per trick, how many tricks per day must each ho turn to support Rufus's $800 per day crack habit?

4). Jerome wants to cut the pound of cocaine he bought for $40,000 to make 20% profit. How many ounces will he need?

5). Willie gets $200 for a stolen BMW, $150 for stealing a Corvette, and $100 for a 4x4. If he steals 1 BMW, 2 Corvettes and 3 4x4's, how many more Corvettes must he have to steal to have $900?

6). Raoul got 6 years for murder. He also got $10,000 for the hit. If his common-law wife spends $100 per month, how much money will be left when he gets out?

Extra credit bonus: How much more time will he get for killing the ho that spent his money?

7). If an average can of spray paint covers 22 square feet and the average letter is 3 square feet, how many letters can be sprayed with 3 eight ounce cans of spray paint with 20% paint free?

8). Hector knocked up 3 girls in the gang. There are 27 girls in his gang. What is the exact percentage of girls Hector knocked up?

9). Bernie is a lookout for the gang. Bernie has a boa constrictor that eats 3 small rats per week at a cost of $5 per rat. If Bernie makes $700 a week as a lookout, how many weeks can he feed the boa on one week's income?

10). Billy steals Joe's skateboard. As Billy skates away at 35 mph, Joe loads his 357 Magnum. If it takes Joe 20 seconds to load his magnum, how far away will Billy be when he gets whacked?

Funny thing is too, I actually went through all of them and I think I know the answer to most of them.


Censored Rap and Me

>> Sunday, January 13, 2008

Honestly my English level doesn't allow me to understand rap. It's too much too fast. That's part of the reason why i don't enjoy hardcore gangster rap, along with its homophobic tendencies, its violence and its demeaning tone against women.

Every so often though, there are some beats or tunes that is so catchy that I can't help but dive into these guilty pleasures.

Move Bitch - Ludacris

My exposure to new music mostly comes from TV, MTV, to be exact. So I was introduced to this song in 2002 just as "Move", not knowing that the TV version was heavily censored. I sung it in the office all cutesy like when someone is in my way. "Move... get outta the way, get outta way, get outta way!" Imagine my shock when my colleagues told me the correct lyrics. It wasn't a big deal, but somehow I felt betrayed by MTV.

"Can I Get A..." - Jay-Z featuring Amil and Ja Rule

This is another one. Great beat, I can really imagine myself bouncing with him, I especially like Amil, she looks and sounds like the total package. Although I had no idea what she was singing back then. All along I thought the lyrics were "Can I get a what-what?", although I wouldn't know what that means. After finding this clip last week, I was horrified to find out that the correct lyrics weren't "what-what" at all. Although after reviewing the correct lyrics, I still don't have a clue what the song is about. There is also a very clever remix of this song seen here.

It reminds me why censoring is bad. Not that I like the uncensored versions better, but I don't appreciate someone else making that decision for me. Lately I've been seeing a lot of commercials about the latest technology to censor TV shows not appropriate for children according to ratings plus television is going completely digital come 2009. But if that really work, it should really means that regular television channels should be able to play more riskee shows. If the censoring is set correctly, children shouldn't be able to accidentally stumble upon sex on TV. That means we should be able to watch Sex in the City without all the cut scenes (what are children doing up that late at night anyway? Who are we protecting exactly?) I vote for gay sex on TV!


Viral Videos (Gwen Verdon and Sondra Prill)

>> Friday, January 11, 2008

Like everyone else, I love YouTube. YouTube is the perfect place to find those classic moments on TV that you want to revisit again and again. It's America's Funniest Home Videos on steroids. It's TiVo, only it's free. Anyone with a digital camera can make their own clips and upload it online. Some put it in front of their TV and uploads TV shows, others with upload part of their lifes, game tutorials, and even sing and dance.

While I'm not a producer of any kind, I like to watch. Me and my friend Cubxotic were discussing various clips we saw on YouTube and who we subscribe to and I thought I should share some of these classics:

Gwen Verdon's Walk It Out

Gwen Verdon appeared in the Ed Sullivan show during the 70s and danced with her posse to a ditty called Mexican Breakfast Fosse style. Afterwards, someone found out that it matches the hip-hop number Walk It Out by UNK. It is kinda funny to see them old birds dancing to a hip-hop song and somehow it seems that the choreography is more appropriate to the hip hop song than the original music, seen here. It would so be the latest aerobic hit if someone can learn and teach it look what it does to the buns and thighs.

Sondra Prill's Nasty

Wait for the bridge and laugh your ass off around 2:22.

What can I say? I can't help but crack up everytime I watch this clip. Apparently Sondra Prill had a public access TV show entitled "My Show" back in 1987 in Tampa, FL. Covering songs from various artists. She's kinda pretty, just completely tone-deaf and the cheese factor is over the top. Watch her versions of Pump Up the Jam, Addicted to Love or watch her karaoke version of Greatest Love of All and see the dismay of the lady sitting on the left. Personally, I just think Sondra is ahead of her time. She could really have a revived career and give William Hung a run for his money.

"No my first name ain't baby... it ain't #@%&*!"


Music Invasion: "I Buy My Socks On 14th Street"

>> Monday, January 07, 2008

I was debating whether I should post just another video from Cazwell, but this one is too much fun to pass up. It's an old school number.

I can't help but write down the lyrics:

--- I Buy My Socks On 14th Street by Cazwell ---

Hey! Time to get up, will you hand me my slippers?
And I'll take my orange juice in a brandy snifter
I'm a great lover and a better listener
Huh? What? Did you say somethin'? Were you talking to me?
All I see is used condom wrappers on the floor
Tricks' numbers on post-its by the door
I'll only call back if I want some more
And that's the life I live when I'm not on tour.

You knew I was the new Don Juan when you saw me
And you smelled the co-log-ne I just sprayed on me
(ptss ptss) And I know I'm nice
Santa don't have to check his list twice.
Here's some advice don't share your keys
Or you might end up with Hepatitis B,
Buy my CD, mind your Qs and Ps
And always say "Cheese" for the paparazzis

See I don't really care what people think,
and I don't really care what people do.
See you don't know me and I don't know you,
and what?! and what?! and what?! and what?!
When I hopped the train I always take the seat
I don't remember the names of the people I meet
I don't need a car because I got two feet
and I buy my socks on 14th Street!

Why's everybody always looking at me?
Is it coz' I jerk off for my webcam for free?
Coz' I'm picking my nose when I'm thinking somethin'
And pullin' the lint out my belly button?
(Hey!) I came from Massachusetts and I don't give two shits
Watch me pop two zits in your grits
I got enthusiasm of a muscle spasm
And I'm gonna show my magic wism-rasm-ma-tasm-and-chizasm

Yeah, I'm truckin' fast
Sweating like my ass crack in yoga class
So pass that dutch, I wanna get fucked up
Until the sun goes down and comes back up
Then goes back down and comes back up
Then down, then down, then down, and up!
Have you had enough or do you want some more?
I put my Adidas Magnums on and I'm out the door

Repeat Chorus

So I'm on 14th Street, right?
And my look head to toe is tight
Til I hit the highway on the west end
I bumped into one of my shady friend
His name is Jake from way upstate
He wants to know if I'll take some Peruvian flakes
He said 'Make it hot, take a ride in my car!'
I said 'Let me think about that for about 8 bars'

.... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... (8 bars)

'No I don't think so, I gotta buy some socks though
I'll party tonight when the mood is right
Just get the hood and don't be a hater
I'll be out tonight' 'Alright, catch you later'

Repeat Chorus


It's All Over Your Face... As It Should Be!

I was reading Joe.My.God's archives and found a post with some comments about Jonny McGovern's video. While some people like it, many compare it to Cazwell. I've never heard of the guy so, of course, I jumped to YouTube immediately to find this gem, it could be slightly offensive so watch it at your own discretion:

I actually like Cazwell because he's cute and also because the offensiveness in his songs. That in-your-face quality satisfy the anarchist in me. There is something to say about Jonny McGovern, Cazwell, Colton Ford and the like: the openly gay artists. Not the I-may-be-straight-until-proven-otherwise artists or the My-personal-life-is-none-of-your-business artists.

"Is it all over my face? I'm in love with that taste."


Feeling Volatile

I live in this old building that is rapidly deteriorating. Once a point in time it used to be a hotel but that was a long, long time ago and since my landlord doesn't give a crap, things are falling apart. After the roof fell around Christmas night, water is straming down from the bathroom upstairs whenever my neighbor is taking a shower or a bath. Water is also mysteriously dripping from another corner of my place. Mysteriously, because there's no water pipes in that area. There's a heater, but it could be a pet as well, although I would have heard some barking of sorts and the ceiling is thin(ner). All these occurences are bringing me down plus my cable is not working properly and I can't watch a lot of local channels and you know how important TV is to me.

I should move, I have been thinking about it. Since I don't like my job and I'm newly single, I want to go somewhere else and start anew. A friend of mine live in San Francisco East Bay area, he's in a studio much like my own, 2 blocks from the BART, 5 minutes from a major supermarket and he pays $5 less than I do. Over in SF I'll be a double majority: Asian and gay. He told me to go to to find myself a job and the rest will fall into places. It's so doable, but I'm convinced that I really need to learn how to drive first.

Since new year has came by I haven't been feeling quite myself (whatever that means), it must be the season. First I thought I just wanted sex, but after a session with "Big Rick" I realized that what I need is intimacy. However unwise I think it is to think about Principe, I still miss him a whole lot.

One of my Benny Friends RR has changed his profile to the lyrics of Cover Girls' "All That Glitters Isn't Gold" and I think it's for my benefit. Maybe because I haven't contacted him since we went to the Deborah Cox concert, or maybe it's the fact that I told him to go home afterwards, it was 3 am and I was exhausted, maybe he's mad at me now. Although I don't have any intentions for us to be boyfriends, I don't have any intentions to be a heartbreaker either.


No Resolutions

>> Thursday, January 03, 2008

This is a picture of the Dartois I baked for the office. If nothing else, the year should start with a bit of a good will. Plus I need to use up the frangipane I made before they go bad... lol.

There are no resolutions this year. Not like I have stuck with the ones before, but I have made up my mind to grow up in certain aspects and also to try and make myself happy. :)

I wish everyone happy as well.


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